September 2, 2015

Don't eat the sandwich board; also, don't be afraid of growing up.

I'm finally settled into my job at the library, and again, it is literally a Godsend of a job.  For real, guys, imagine spending all day in the stacks at the library.  And I get paid to do it.  While "on desk," my duties as a library clerk are to check books in/out and help the patrons.  Behind the scenes, though, I have "off desk" duties.  All of us clerks are assigned a different job to do, in addition to some tasks that we all do.  I could not be happier with the duties I was assigned.  Firstly, I am in charge of the sandwich board.  It looks just like this kind of thing:

Except our specials are more relevant to library events, book sales, etc., obviously.  I have to say, I added a highly unnecessary amount of artistic flair and flourish to the sign.  I've spent way too much time in art classes to not start going ALL OUT when I'm given a blank canvas and some markers.  I may have to tone it back next time to make it more reader-friendly and be able to fit more stuff on it...

My other job is equally as perfect for me: I am more or less in charge of the Young Adult section.  Our YA section is admittedly very small in comparison to the rest of the library, but I'm proud to have the responsibility of decorating the bulletin board, creating themed displays, choosing which books to highlight, helping with the teen activities, etc.  It works out, since I'm actually a Young Adult.  ;)

So, yeah, I'm just writing to say I am so extremely happy right now, and also I feel totally unqualified to have such a great Grown Up job.  I've had jobs before.  But something is different now.  I'm still growing up, at 20 years old, and it's not as drastic and scary as I thought it would be.  I don't know; I kind of thought (way back when) that growing up was some milestone.  It kept changing as I passed milestones.  At some point, all of these things seemed to be the Next Step of Growing Up:
  • I turned 13 and started high school.
  • I turned 16 and started driving myself places.
  • I graduated high school.
  • I met my first boyfriend.
  • I went to college.
  • I got my first real job.
  • etc, etc, etc
However, it was not these accomplishments themselves that grew me up.  It was the experiences I had between the milestones.  For example... I had my heart broken, it felt like the world was ending for a while, and I survived.  I felt myself growing up through learning to deal with the pain of ending a relationship.  I changed my majors three times, causing a lot of stress in school.  I was aware of growing up then, too, as I finally gave it all up to God to hold my future and not let me get in the way by constantly changing my mind, lol.  My family left the church we'd attended for years and years, and it was honestly one of the hardest changes I've ever gone through to find my place somewhere else, but I was maturing through it.

I guess I'm realizing that "Growing Up" is totally a thing.  It's experiencing, and maturing, and learning, and growing. "Grown Up" as a milestone does not exist, though.  That's not a thing.  I don't know exactly what it means to be Grown Up; it probably some kind of myth to motivate you to do stuff.  There will probably never be a point where I say to myself, "Yup, I did it - I have Grown Up, and it's all downhill from here."  Like, I honestly don't want to "finish" growing up.  Ever.

Adulthood is one thing; growing up is entirely another, I think.


  1. Great post! As someone who has worked in a library I totally get how much fun it can be:)